thank God .

i wanna thank my God for given me many chance --------to survive to live happy .

Do not wanna have sex before marriage.

Here is what i though for premarital sex,
honestly it will kill your soul.
No matter you're boy or girl, it's bad.

when you have sex with another person , there's a commitment.
Do not say that you love him or her then you give him/her satisfy of sex.
This is not true idea.

In Bible, there's mention that when a women have se with a men that's make then from 2 become 1.
this is mean you and him /her is one person now, you two is a binding.

but when you have sex just for lush, simply have sex that will kill the light of true love.


I have asked so many peoples, they tell me the bad things after they have sex with their partner before marrige, 100% will not get a good return. so behave.

I am single now and i doin my job as a Christian

Hello. i am single now , and i left my sin.

I went Thailand for holidays

My impression for Thailand-Bangkok ---

Thailand is a sin city. u can see sin anywhere.
There's hooker anywhere,crime....
and there's temple anywhere.
Peoples worhship their god here and there,even in the taxi...
every corner u 'll find thier god.

When i in hotel--zenith sukhumvit hotel-bangkok,
i was scared,because i just watched thai ghost movie and it's really horro.
then at night i am so hardly to slept.
^^
now i am not talikng any ghost story, but a my experience of how i getting power and comfortable after i pray to GOD and read bible, i can sleep then. ^^

Thank YOU , MY GOD.
^^
amen.

thank you for giving me strength to through thi s. Amen.

Answer

Answer for make u temporary feel like falling in love is ok...
--for me--i feel that when i'm eatin' Chocolate, or i am eating Cake...then i feel the cheese/chocolate melt in my mouth , it's feel so great.

...

the Answer when i feel out of love is when i'm under a very hot sun...
and no water for me to drink. I 'm thristy.


That's the answer for LOVE by my Body n senses.

But babe.
now i wanna tell you the ANSWER in my life by my soul.

I feel so much in LOVE with My FAITH, my GOD.
HE's The ANSWER why my souls' happy,sad,bitter,sweet...and so so so On.

He's the answer fo me when i'm feel out of love, HE'll Caring me,pampering me.
Give me the Water and solve my thirsty.
^^

GOD, YOU"RE THE ANSWER.

I LOVE JESUS.

Do not force others to join Christian

I working part-time in hypermarket. i meet many sort of peoples. and they do have diffrent religion.
Last-night , got two guys very suprised i'm Christian, and i proud to tell them i am . Yes , i am.
they seem very dislike Christian...
I do not why at first, but then when they ask why i do not push them go Church. Then i tell them , it's not i do not want, but i want they go there by themselve without force.
then they show me they happy,satisfy and relax face to me.

from this, actually this is not the first time i meet peoples who dislike Christian because they think we will force them go church.

I know, in some places, some chirstian really very hot in this to please others be chirstian, i know this is good will, with no bad intention, because it's our duty to bring peoples be Christian, but ...
DO NOT FORCE.

If they say they do not want , then just let go.
When got suitable times and chance just invite them go church. maybe for party or somethings.
That' will make them more happy to sit there and listen some Gospel.
^^

I know i not yet bring anyone go church and believe my GOD.
but , got so many peoples used to and willing to and also curiously asked me and i answer them the GOSPEL!!!
and they accept what i talked. just not yet see the fruits grow.^^

Thanks GOD.
Amen.

I am SICK

• Relieves symptoms like dizziness, nausea, sweating and vomiting
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• Alleviates disorientation and sensations of spinning or swaying
• Balances fluid levels in the inner ear
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Balancing the inner ear

Although we might take balance for granted, the vestibular system is one of the most impressive functions of the human body, as it is the sensory system that provides the dominant input about movement and balance. Although we may not realize it, tiny structures in our inner ear help to keep us from tipping over.

Balance is the result of a number of bodily systems working together - the eyes (visual system), ears (vestibular system), and the body’s sense of where it is in space (proprioception). The information from these body systems is integrated by the brain, which also needs to be functioning normally to maintain balance.

The vestibular system works with the visual system to keep objects in focus when the head is moving. When the head is tilted or the body position is changed with respect to gravity, the displacement of the stones causes the hair cells to bend. If there are any irregularities in this balance system of ‘bobbing buoys’ and fluid, we lose the ability to remain balanced.

The natural way

Experiencing dizziness and problems with balance from time to time can be extremely distressing, but there are many things that you can do to help your dizziness naturally. Drinking adequate amounts of fluid daily, change positions slowly to avoid dizziness and disorientation, limit the amount of salt you eat in a day to decrease the pressure of your inner ear, can all help.

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i’ve experience sickness like 1.dizzy, 2 , vomit , 3 headache

last week. 12-10-08 , and the 1st doctor i meet in Klinik Berkerley klang told me, i got food Poisoining.

Ok. then after 3 days my medicine gone finished, i experience the same sickness again.

i went to meet doctor at klinik Mesra, and i been told it;s because i am too tension and stress for my exam. so i take the medicine he gave.

after 3 days, the medicine finished and i experience that sickness again!!!

last-nite i went to Klinik UMRA, a specailist knlink for sakit -puan(maternity)

but i know they have specialist for me too.

then that doctor gave me some medicine to control dizzy.

and told me come today 6pm appointment with a physician specialist doctor.

Finally, after we done some test, he knew i’m inner ear unbalance.

then gave me some medicine and ask me to pharmacy buy some GINKGO(because clinic have sold out this )and ask me took this for 2 weeks.

and i do.

i wish this times, i found the right Doctor.

Hopefully i can get well soon. ^^

i have book ticket to Bangkok in early november, so hopefully i will be ok at that times.

^^

GOD BLESS.

I experienced serious food poisoning last few days.

I Went to my coursemates' open house, n the next day when i woke up in my boy's house., i feel serious sickness..

My headached, my leg seem like stroke. n later i feel very terribel, everythings i eat i drink, i'll vomit out, then my boy though it just my sign of low blood pressure. but it's was nOT !!
and 3 pm -4 pm that sunday afternoon we went to doctor. I have food poisoning and i'm so sick .

doctor give me injection and few medicine.
and non forget the

How does ORT work?

Acute diarrhea normally only lasts a few days. ORT does not stop the diarrhoea, but it replaces the lost fluids and essential salts thus preventing or treating dehydration and reducing the danger.

The glucose contained in ORS solution enables the intestine to absorb the fluid and the salts more efficiently.

ORT alone is an effective treatment for 90-95% of patients suffering from acute watery diarrhoea, regardless of cause, This makes intravenous drip therapy unnecessary in all but the most severe cases.

Dehydration

What is dehydration?

The human body needs water to maintain enough blood and other fluids to function properly. If your body loses substantially more fluids than you are drinking, you become dehydrated.

You may lose fluids in a variety of ways:

• when urinating
• when you vomit or have diarrhea
• when sweating
• from the lungs during normal breathing.

Along with the fluids, your body also loses electrolytes, which are salts normally found in blood, other fluids, and cells.

How does it occur?

The usual causes of dehydration are a lot of diarrhea and vomiting. Dehydration can also occur if you do not eat or drink much during an illness or if you do not drink enough during or after strenuous exercise. Medications that cause fluid loss to control excess body fluid (diuretics) are a common long-term cause. Although anyone can become dehydrated, those who become dehydrated the most easily are:

• babies under 1 year old
• the elderly
• anyone who has a fever
• people in hot climates.

What are the symptoms?

Symptoms of early or mild dehydration include:

• flushed face
• extreme thirst
• dry, warm skin
• small amounts of dark, yellow urine
• dizziness made worse when you are standing
• weakness
• cramping in the arms and legs
• crying with few or no tears
• headaches
• dry mouth with thick saliva.

Symptoms of moderate to severe dehydration include:

• low blood pressure
• fainting
• severe muscle contractions in the arms, legs, stomach, and back
• convulsions
• a bloated stomach
• heart failure
• sunken eyes with few or no tears
• lack of elasticity of the skin (when a bit of skin lifted up takes a long time to go back to its normal position)
• rapid and deep breathing.

How is it diagnosed?

Your doctor will review your symptoms and do a physical exam.

How is it treated?

If you are mildly dehydrated, you need to drink enough liquid to replace the fluids you have lost. Also, you need to replace the electrolytes (salts) you have lost. Drinking sips of water slowly, along with eating the typical American diet, which is high in salt, will replace fluids and salts you have lost.

Nonprescription medicines are available that help replenish fluids and electrolytes. You can also replace both fluids and electrolytes by drinking sports drinks or an oral rehydration solution (ORS). Drink the solution (or give it to the dehydrated person if he or she is conscious) immediately. Do not wait until dehydration becomes severe.

Packets of oral rehydration salts are widely available. To use one of these packets, mix the contents with 1 quart or liter of drinking water. If drinking water is not available, or if you are not sure the water is drinkable, boil the water for at least 10 minutes.

If ORS packets are not available, mix an oral rehydration solution using the following recipe: To 1 quart or liter of drinking water or boiled water, add the following:

• 2 tablespoons sugar or honey
• 1/4 teaspoon salt
• 1/4 teaspoon baking soda (bicarbonate of soda).

Notes: If baking soda is not available, add another 1/4 teaspoon of salt. If possible, add 1/2 cup orange juice or some mashed banana to improve the taste and provide some potassium.

Drink sips of the ORS (or give the ORS solution to the conscious dehydrated person) every 5 minutes until urination becomes normal. (It's normal to urinate four or five times a day.) Adults and large children should drink at least 3 quarts or liters of ORS a day until they are well.

If you are vomiting, continue to try to drink the ORS. Your body will retain some of the fluids and salts you need even though you are vomiting. Remember to take sips of liquids slowly. Chilling the ORS may help.

If you have diarrhea, continue to drink the ORS. The fluids will not increase the diarrhea.

Someone with symptoms of severe dehydration needs to go to an emergency room or other health care facility to get intravenous fluids (fluids given directly into the veins through a needle) if possible. If able to drink, he or she should also drink the ORS.

During or after treatment of dehydration, whatever is causing the diarrhea, vomiting, or other symptoms should also be treated.

How long will the effects last?

If dehydration is not treated, it can cause death. If it is treated in time, recovery is usually complete.

How can I take care of myself?

• Know the symptoms of dehydration. Try to drink extra fluids if you know your body is losing them rapidly.
• Know the recipe for ORS.
• If you are traveling in a country that does not have water that is safe for drinking, carry with you a quart (or liter) of boiled water and packets of ORS solution or the ingredients to make it.

What can be done to prevent dehydration?

If you have diarrhea or vomiting, or if you are not drinking very much, force yourself to begin drinking liquids before you become dehydrated.

If you are with someone you think is becoming dehydrated, follow these guidelines when possible:

• Give more liquids than usual.
• Remember that a dehydrated person will have less of an appetite. Encourage him or her to eat and drink small amounts of food and liquids five to seven times a day.
• Watch for signs of more severe dehydration and get medical help as soon as possible.

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When i am sick , really sick, i think about JESUS.

I Prayed.
And The next day when i recover a bit, i called my MUM, i miss my family.

I MISS MY GOD.

AMEN.


GOD have his will in my Life.
I know that. Thank you JESUS for making me sick and let me remeber my path.
Amen.

We performed

Me in the Pre-grad Dinner.

Me will soon grad nest year. so ... this could be the last dinner BLC for me.

^^

I am tired ...

Jesus,
I am tired. tired of working so hard, study so hard.

Tired of the discrimination in class.
My Lecturer Miss Zira really so discrimination . racist.
she say: sabah /sarawak iban dont know english bla bla...... ...."
then i raise up my hand say, no, sarawak ppl know english.
then she say : ape u pergi jau jauh ni, saya cakap kalao sarawak tak faham english. "

I know, she 's so hate sarawak ppl for so long times, when Angela say she wanna go out because her bf car broke , she need to fetch him, thn Zira say: kalao macam tu Kim ikut kao pergi lah"
then ofcoz i went off the class.

I really hate this politic in class.

I came here for study , not to make my lecturer happy.

But , yes ,
i know i cant make her happy, i am not rich to rasuah her.
and i am not malay.

It's may be my doubt, but i really do get a good mid term exam marks very times, and when it in final,
it's just a 180 degree turn.
over !!
it's so obviously they're playing theire kuasa.

In only a small things like this already play kuasa, test their power, then in a big things , big deal, a real politic??/ i cat imagine more.


Jesus, i am tired.

Save me.

Me , you, crying for Salvation.

Lord, my JESUS, my GOD.


Life is short, but we're not only have to have fun,i asked one of my friend---he's a Christian Before, because he dont believe others people can help to clear up his sin, so he converted to Buddish, which can do more good things to cover the bad .
then one day i asked him ,
whta is your meaning to live ?
he can't answer me.


And another friend- she's born in Muslims family,
then one day- she told me that Nabi Isa is Jesus.
I told her why i become Christian, it's because i found out only Bible is true religion book, there can found the evidence in history.
and then i asked her , when Islam started?
she say , 621 Ad.
that;s mean Jesus already 621 years old,
then i asked her, when is Nabi Isa, she say " after about 300 years of Muslim start..
Then i tell her, that's ,
In that times Jesus already 900+ years old, how can he is Nabi Isa???

so she's wordless.

I write blog here is not to critic, but just to menton,
everything have it's root,
everything happen and must leave a evidence .
you walk on the sand , it must leave a footprint.

so,
By the evidence , i know
MY LORD , My JESUS is true.
I LOVE to Be Christian, which i know this is not only a religion, but a way to save me.
A salvation.



p/s I am not to make the national racial, religion tension.
not to critic any others religion.

You can leave you comment here.
anything you think i get wrong just comment me, let us find it out.



Thanks.

Why we always disobey?

hello, i am kim.and i am happy.

I am happy, actaully in this few days i should be very stress , but i am not.

I am happy.

My roommate tell me that i smile when i am sleping. i dont know what i dreaming that times.
But i am happy for sure.

Me n my bf in on off relationship, i should be so sad about this, but, i am not.
i feel good.
He may have cheat on me, i saw his very close picture with a preety teen.
and he claims his not cheating on me.
I just let it be. I try to broke off, but it's hurt. Really hurt me, and i felt i gonna die for this pain.
Then he want me back to him, without a word, we're together again.
And i feel that i just want to be happy, i forgive what he done to me, and i release my pain.
NOw, i don't want to think much , as long as i feel it's alright, then we;re walk on.
of cause if i feel not that on, then i 'll definitely says goodbye to him .

My study--i just received warning letter from my Parnership Law Lecturer, i wonder why he gave me letter, in case i am not absent as many times as others people did.
But i am the only Pure chines in the class, i understand. I felt furious at the first, and now i feel better, come on, just a letter, it's not gonna to kill me.
I will attend his class later.
As i remebered, i absent his class not more that 5 times. it perhaps only two times in a row, so he so mean to warning me.
and i am really make him pay attention on me in the class.
I am outstanding , so he very easy to notice me not in his class.
So i should glad, and feel happy about it.


Well.. i am happy.

My midterm result is not clear yet, i dont even want to know about my marks, of cause i will help others to request for the marks, i know they want to know.


It's already almost everytimes i got good result in Mid semester, and in final result, i am so poor, so i dont want to know about my Mid.
I just want to try my best and wait for the final.

Emm.. i am planing to give extra assignment to all subjects, then i can like usual be more comfirm of not being dump.

^^


Thanks Jesus for given me a chance to be Christian, That's why i am Happy all the times.

^^

Amen.

august lo...busy no pray? NOPE!!!

it's august already...
me now started study hard . well... can't study that smart..!!

left one more yera i'll grad, so i must do something.
i managed to slim down also , so i keep go to sauna,emm.. every twice a week.
i hope it can do something for me.

I pray to God also. but now it's very seldom...
i'm shamed of this.
i always say I"M BUSY!!!
I have to work part-time, to give tuition,to study....to dating ...(multidating...)
to accompany my friends.

BUT I FORGOT TO ACCOMPANY MY GOD!!!!!

May GOD forgive me.
FORGIVE ME.

I know busy can not make any excuse for me to escape pray and read bible, so i wish to manage it , at least have to pray and read bible every once a week or twice a week. and maybe everyday.

I used to read bible everyday. at that time i still remember i'm strong.
now i am really weak.
I hope GOD can help me to wake up.


now it's seem like i'm little by little back to GOD 's path, so i hope can get better and more.

Dear GOD,
please forgive my sin.
because i'm long lose and lazy and always find excuse to run away from pary and read bible .
please forgive my sin.
may GOD be with me, send your Angel protect me, and send your holy spirit to awake me and guide me to YOU.

In JESUS name i prayed.
Amen.

LOve letter

Dear Jesus,

Please Forgive my Sin.
I always think i am so unlucky, i born in Malaysia, not U.k(i dream to be there).
I always complaint i am just too short , i am just 153 cm -155 cm, i am even not dare to measure my height after form 5.
I always think i am so unlucky girl, my family's poor.

But GOD, thank you for staying with me. Giving me many chances to be what you think it's best for me.
I am Law Student now, amd i will soon graduate. how lucky i am.


I still remember that days, i cannot pass and cannot get in the government university, i felt like my world be apart.
But GOD you guide me, you give me light to go on.
And guide me to KUTPM. (now upgrade to Management and science University)

I am so proud , i 'm finally can be standing tall and tell the world, i'm success, i am not unlucky poor girl.

Financially, YOU also give me Financially support.
I still remember--
I only have rm 200 in the stranger place.
2hours of flight from my home town .
i though i'll die here, but GOD you give me oppurtunities to survive here.

I am , I am Proud to Be YOURs.

I love you.

Now, i dont think i am so unlucky,
because i'm so LUCKY with GOD.

I LOVE YOU.

I am proud to tell the world !!

I am proud to tell the world I am Christian!!!

Dear,

I am now live happy and peaceful.
I starting to manage my life with those 10 rules in Lord.

And i do live heathier now. I 'll go sauna every once or twice a week, i do pray everytimes.
i do "thank God" in every moment. When i do exercise , i feel my body charging with power, and when i think of GOD , i'll feel my soul charging with Power.
Power from GOD.

So i like to do exercise and think of GOD.

I know i used to be so so bad , but i'm glad i'm back to nature.
Back to my GOD.

传道

耶稣 说-我是到路真理生命， 若不籍这我 没有人可以到父那里去。


我清楚明白主耶稣基督是唯一要上天堂的路，所以我现在呢多多少少要把这讯息传给我那个很让人气到吐血的男友耳里。


愿主耶稣基督保守，也愿圣灵感化我们。

阿门。阿门。


我可不想因为他不是\基督徒而和他分手，若改不到他变基督徒，徒，我们也只好走上分手的道路了。。。。。。。。。。

毕竟跟我的神 比起来，他没那么重要。

陪我走过风风雨雨的也不是他，而是我的上帝。

没有他，他，我可以活。没有了我的上帝，没有耶稣，耶稣，没有圣灵，我死了。

给上帝的信

亲爱的天父，

主，我的阿爸父神，
我。。。。。我迷恋上了一个男人，爱他的程度试排名第三的。

主，愿主报守我，我要天天读经，总不能因为什么其他的原因而不读经。

每天祷告，总部能不到告。

现在的我有点迷惘，但是求主不要离弃我。

求主带领我走向主要我走的路。

不怕伤疼。。。。。。。。。


感谢主，奉主耶稣名求得，
阿门。

性与爱

男人总能有性没有爱，但是老实说，
我。。不能够有性没有爱。

爱情是神圣的，
没有爱，那么又哪能有性呢?


我近排爱上了个真的没什么好的小男人。
小我两岁。


我以为我们可以没有性，可是，。。。。
我还是躲不过，

我和他发生了关系。
我的宗教不允许婚前性行为，而我却做了。。。。

所以我一直都觉得我和他，我们没有爱情。

我是那么的希望可以有爱情，
真爱要等待，如果你也发生了婚前性行为，
请把现在的那位当作你的终身伴侣，
没有入教堂，但在心里有个位置是---已经嫁给他了。
所以才能和他发生夫妻才做的事。

主耶稣，请赦免我的罪。

我多么的希望我能守着这个男人正式走进教堂。

流浪

我一直以来都很响往流浪的生活，因此我就希望可以有那么一个机会给我流浪。

我十八岁离家至今，虽然有时真的很想家，可是还是久久才会一次家。


我在上个月才回家的，现在有那么丁点的想念家。
家。。。。。。。。。

家是你的新爱得地方，那里有爱，那里就有家。
两年前在美里油城念书时就把那当家了，离开了那里，来到了西马，这个地方，
就住了也快两年了，也把这当家了。

其实，在这个世界我哪里都没有家，所以就哪里都是我的家。

主耶稣给了我可以四处流浪的力量。
家就在主爱里。

虽然很多时候会伤心难过，好难熬，
读这个法律也读的快要发疯了，但是主的爱都会准时的供给我足够用的水份让我生存。

感谢主。主。

我不是个好孩子，我总是让主担心。。。。。。。。。

可是主耶稣总是陪伴着我，我还能说什么呢。。。。。。

。。。主，我爱你。

愿主耶稣可以坚固我的心，赐圣灵感动我，我，陪伴我，愿主耶稣保守我不被魔鬼迷惑。

魔鬼总能给人美丽的外表，包着糖衣得爱情，

让人陷入情欲的泥沼。。。。。。

。。。主耶稣，愿主明亮我的眼睛，
坚固我的信心。

阿门。

永不放弃我的主

不管谁， 都不能改变 我 爱主的心。 一个基督徒要如何面对已经百孔千疮的爱情?
我的爱情，不值得，

当你的爱情让你的世界越来越小时，那么。。。。快离开吧。
当你的爱情让你远离主耶稣时，不要犹豫，分手吧。

爱情不是一切，没有了爱情还可以活，
可是，没有了主耶稣，我活不了。


我的男人是个无神论，他却异常的相信降头术。。。。可能因为他有一半的血统是泰国人。
我却无法接受他说的"降头可以压过神'。
非常讽刺的是，他家里有很多民间神明，而他却说他们都没什么能耐。
他从来都不是基督徒，他什么都不知道。
所以他没有资格说我的 上帝的能力是什么。


我多么希望他可以抽空去教堂，因为他的家里真的很多事，
爸爸跟中国婆跑路了，又传说被下降了。。。。。。。。。
弟弟也是被某个神婆说被下降了。。。。。。。。。
他自己本身也是脾气暴躁。。。。。。。。。
家里没有一天有宁日。。
。
家里的神像是多到数不清，可是没有平安。


或许，上帝要我认识到他的旨意就是带领他信主。

也或许我没那么大的能耐，我希望可以给他一个概念，然后接下来的工就由圣灵来做了。

我可以没有爱情，我不能没有主耶稣。

哈哈，我回来了阿?

我今天考完试，就是假期了。
本来很忧郁在假期里要做什么事，结果呢，
现在看到了哦，
我要读圣经。

好久没有读圣经了，都快搞到自己要崩溃了才想到要找主耶稣基督帮忙。

我的压力，是满大的，但是有比主耶稣基督的大吗?
看看自己每天忙忙碌碌找钱，读书，玩乐，
这真的士我要的吗?
在这个假期里，我必需找回我消失的我。

主耶稣基督，感谢你让我突然有了这样的念头，
求主赐圣灵感动我，继续的辅导我，帮助我找到来时的路。

主，我仿佛听到你说，
你们到我这里来，我就使你们得安息。


阿门，哈里路亚，愿尊贵荣耀归于全能的上帝。


阿门。

他 出 轨了

他说爱我，我感觉到，是的，那么是怎样的爱呢。。。。。?
昨晚，我凌晨一点就睡了，在快两点时，我收到了一封简讯，他和另一个她在玩信息，错手send给我了。。。。。。。。
我好伤好伤。。。。
我本来打算接受他成为我的男朋友的，结果现在，我真的好伤。
其实我好爱好爱他。和他在意起我可以忘记了以前好多部愉快的事，
我终于鼓起勇气来想在谈一段恋爱，
爱，却是这样阿。

我有文他到底为什么传给我这样的简讯，他说觉得很好笑，就传给我，我，
亏他还可以瞎掰下去阿。
我真的好难受，
今天考试又考的不好，真的很伤的一天。却要若无其事的。。。。。。。。。
继续和他交友，我的天阿。
上帝，。。。。。。。。。
Tell me what to do... Please.

我。。。。。。。。。

主耶稣，赦免我的罪，我已快没有面目见你了。了。
主耶稣，

救救我
。

When all destroyed, you want to Rebuild yourlife..

Britney spears go insane!!!!
everyone out there talking about her asshole,
yet , she's not yet crazy, she just depressed.

She now start trying hard to re-enjoy her-life, and re-build her life that destroyed earlier.

I hope she can get back to JESUS, and re-found what God want in her.


Me myself, now in quite not far than Britney situation, i am trying hard to re-build my life,
my dignity.

sometimes, we will lose, and lose ourself,
but dont lose your faith!!!
i still believe in God,
I am feel so shamed to face my GOD after i done all this sin, but now i remind,
How God Love me, he gave his son 's life to sacrificed and wash my sin,
How can i just repeated my sin?

why can i be awake nad grow? stopped making GOD worry.

In bible, have states--God welcome any lose sheep.

Her i ma, i'm back.


I know can re-build my life from GOD.


I LOVE JESUS.

A love mail to Jesus

I am small when i in your arms,
i failed and fallen, i am in the darkness hole...
but i keep looking for your salvation..
God... Please Forgive me.

I am , I am what YOU want me to be,
I am , here i am, take me.


I am ..

GOD,
I love you.

Don't leave me.

Please. . .

I love Jesus

I know God have change me,
turn me to be a better me,
in the training even though i am hurt, but i turn to be a better me.

I love Jesus.

Forever.

Getting Better

Now i am getting bettre, Chinese new year coming soon,
and i have a better life-style now.
I love KL.

I love my life over here.
Or i should say , i Love JESUS giving me strenght to love all this.

I have a new handphone, w 610i sony ericson, probably is free, emm maybe it's very low price, because that man give the handphone to me and just ask me pay him anytime, and in any-price.

Well, thank You JESUS, and that man--ken.

And more , i have know another nice guy name-kent.
here is kent, not ken.(they are different person)
He treat me well too. that day my air-con broke, he help and Free.
Service and free. (so i save my $$$)

And , i have a very nice Friend -Angela,
she help me a lot, treat me well. (i think if i am lesbian, i will be her girl-friend.)
hehe.
later after class i'll go shoppin with her.
i like her. even sometimes she' do something that hurt my feeling, but i still like her.

and more, My new gay housemates, he cook for me, and he is nice than girl housemate.
Because he have man body, man strenght, so he can do the heavy work, but thne inside he's a girl, so, he can cook like Mama.
hahah.
I am happy.


And mOre , i now trying using new sim card call -happy.
call 45 minutes just .99 cent.
so
cheap!!!
i reload it Rm 50, and i guess it can last long. (at least one month.)
so i save some more $$$.


I love JESUS giving me cahnce to feel the happy in my life.
thanks.

and i work as a tuition teacher and also the part-time promoter, my $$ currently is just can fit my expanses as a university student.

ok ok. but i know, i sure can earn more money,
if na donly i cruel a bit. because i give the cheapest tuition service in this neighbourhood....
and now, i up the fee.
i can live more better.

Thanks Jesus.

Amen.

God.. Please Help me.

God, please help me.
i bow down, God.. Please guide me the wya you wna tme to do.
Please forgive me. Forgive my sin.

God....


in the name of Jesus i prayed.

Amen.

Kind to be cruel ---i hate her.(i say it. )

Hello, i am kim.
emm, how to say,
i am really nearly break down last few days.

Because i have to face many problems,
then --
this morning when i woke up, i discover air con in my room broke...!! and when i go down my bed, i falled something and hit my friend, (who sleep under my bed. )

God know, how i feel like,
it's ok, i tell myself , it's small small thing,
dont let it spoil my day, then i start call my friend(he's work as air-con repairer.)
and he agree to come to fix it today.
Ok,
Ok, it's solve,
i wonder why everytimes only me ---- only me alone to face the problems,
eventhough WE , i mean me and all 3 of them share the same room.
ok, if say 2 of them are not often stay here, 'cause they are KL oringin, so they can back thier own home,
then, what about the 1 girl who is permanent tenant?!!!
She did nothing. and she still always complaint .
She never clean up the house, and yet she complaining....!!!
she's slut. Ok!

(i know it's not good to say people's bad , becuse i am not good also, but...
i must say something before i burts my anger . Then it might be too late... )


If let's say, i am cruel, then now i must be stya with my friend, she's offer me live in her house in s17, then sure , i will not handing this damn house problems every sem.

i am kind, so the next is ---i 'll kind to be cruel.


Why must me, Why must be ME alone to face all the small small problems in the house,
we all student and stay together, But then,
i am the one who go to pay the water, electric bill...
who go call security when my housemate she have crash with outsider, and the outsider come to revenge...
Me, me alone to deal the extra Extra problems she bought in.

I am -- I a the person who clean the house, who wash the dish everytimes,
who clean the 2 toilets. (eventhough i am not using the other one...)
i ma the one who fix the fans (call ppl come..), ----the paip, sinki, the lamp, (i fixed it by my own hand, myself.)

and now---
the air con. (by handing it to my best male friend.)


Ok, ok,
i wonder , what's next!!!????

O~, yups, i forget,
i am the one who pay the more rental in the house , because they dont want to respond together for the vacanies.(Rm 275 ) per month.
plus my own rental, it's around 4 hundred.
Ok ok.
I am kind , i am nice person, but Please, i have my limits.

Sometimes i feel like i'll burts my anger, then i find someway to hide, and i
and because i'm really hope to be peace, so i dont want to count too much with my housemates.
But now....

seem like i have to tell them, i am enough.


Or one day , they'll no longer see me in the house, @ they have to find another place to live .
(without me, they can't rent the Club condo house in such low price, and may never get someone willing to rent the house to student.... )


Let's see.

To be cruel?

Yesterday my Sister scolding me for almost 1 hour.
She scolding me too "naif", and stupid, because me myself acting too kind and soft to my enemy .

I guess ya, i am too kind to my enemy, cause who debt me $$, i didnt really cruel to chase back my $$$.
Case 1--- one girl owed me $$, because she say she's sick so currently cant give back the $$ to me, then i give her timing about 1 week to hear from her, wish she's healthy now, and free to meet me.
If she dont wnat to or if she can afford , at least---i hope she can meet me to talk.

Then---now, i wait for 2 -3 weeks, she's no respond to me. She's not sick also. (i am the person in the end fall sick, because of my fnancial problem....then i have to work 2 part-times job...)
I have $$ problems, but i still lend my $$$ to her, i hope she understand my situation also... but
lastly, she dissapointed me.
She ask her Boy Friend to deal with me, and in the reverse way, her Boy friend insulted i am the one who Bully her girl frined!!!
(Wait a minuts, we are talk about $$, but why turn the topic to---bully? unhappy? )
So.... .... ....
This is what Penisular Johor muar girl did to me....



My sis ask me to be cruel, maybe i can take her property until she give back me the $$ she owed me.

But i didnt move...

GOD help me..
Tell me what to do.


Am i should just let go, because i debt YOU. MY GOD more than waht she debt me.
(this is what i think i sholud do... let go...)


GOD please Forgive me.

Thankx.

Give thanks.

Everyday, i woke up, and i keep asking why my life so damn bad, not like others?
why?
why me?
why i am poor, i am not pretty, i am short? why i have to hander this heavy pressure?

then , my life satrt to be so dim....
i'm in blue mood. I want to suicide. i can't hander anymore!!!
this is what i shout .-----------------------------until....lastnite,

When i went to my Freind house, He is so much harder than me....!
(poor, bad relationship with family, not educated...)

Waoh, it remind me , How Lucky I am .
i found out that , i am not that pity!
I have a quite Big House, I have a lovely Family, I have a Sister who always scolding me, but she Love Me!!!
I am University Student, I have a clean Background,
I am CHRISTIAN!!!

everyone have they own burden have to bear, so do i , so do them.

I am so Lucky. because i borned in Malaysia, a peaceful country, and i am Lucky, i am Chinese,
so i am not that Poor. (only 6% from the poor in Malaysia're Chinese.)

The Most Lucky thing is ================ I AM CHRISTIAN.
so when i am so hard, i feel like want to die, when i am no longer have strength to fight anymore,
JESUS rear me.
JESUS will hold me up.
Caring Me like a BABY.


I look back the year 2007,
i am so much poor and Pressure than now, and that times , the house problems, the money, Job, and family problems are so much burden than now.

Now , i teach Tution to get my Pocket money, i meet many new friends, i have a Lovely house(eventhough i have to pay more $.), My result is going up also.
I have new part-time job, to get my extra extra money to shoppin and having fun.

I am now Lifestyles of the kind---work hard, study hard, party hard.

I should be give thanks to GOD.


So, now ,
TODAY , i would like to present my Thanks To My LORD JESUS.
To Give Thanks to My GOD.

" Thank You JESUS, I always Love you. "