Getting Better

Now i am getting bettre, Chinese new year coming soon,
and i have a better life-style now.
I love KL.

I love my life over here.
Or i should say , i Love JESUS giving me strenght to love all this.

I have a new handphone, w 610i sony ericson, probably is free, emm maybe it's very low price, because that man give the handphone to me and just ask me pay him anytime, and in any-price.

Well, thank You JESUS, and that man--ken.

And more , i have know another nice guy name-kent.
here is kent, not ken.(they are different person)
He treat me well too. that day my air-con broke, he help and Free.
Service and free. (so i save my $$$)

And , i have a very nice Friend -Angela,
she help me a lot, treat me well. (i think if i am lesbian, i will be her girl-friend.)
hehe.
later after class i'll go shoppin with her.
i like her. even sometimes she' do something that hurt my feeling, but i still like her.

and more, My new gay housemates, he cook for me, and he is nice than girl housemate.
Because he have man body, man strenght, so he can do the heavy work, but thne inside he's a girl, so, he can cook like Mama.
hahah.
I am happy.


And mOre , i now trying using new sim card call -happy.
call 45 minutes just .99 cent.
so
cheap!!!
i reload it Rm 50, and i guess it can last long. (at least one month.)
so i save some more $$$.


I love JESUS giving me cahnce to feel the happy in my life.
thanks.

and i work as a tuition teacher and also the part-time promoter, my $$ currently is just can fit my expanses as a university student.

ok ok. but i know, i sure can earn more money,
if na donly i cruel a bit. because i give the cheapest tuition service in this neighbourhood....
and now, i up the fee.
i can live more better.

Thanks Jesus.

Amen.

God.. Please Help me.

God, please help me.
i bow down, God.. Please guide me the wya you wna tme to do.
Please forgive me. Forgive my sin.

God....


in the name of Jesus i prayed.

Amen.

Kind to be cruel ---i hate her.(i say it. )

Hello, i am kim.
emm, how to say,
i am really nearly break down last few days.

Because i have to face many problems,
then --
this morning when i woke up, i discover air con in my room broke...!! and when i go down my bed, i falled something and hit my friend, (who sleep under my bed. )

God know, how i feel like,
it's ok, i tell myself , it's small small thing,
dont let it spoil my day, then i start call my friend(he's work as air-con repairer.)
and he agree to come to fix it today.
Ok,
Ok, it's solve,
i wonder why everytimes only me ---- only me alone to face the problems,
eventhough WE , i mean me and all 3 of them share the same room.
ok, if say 2 of them are not often stay here, 'cause they are KL oringin, so they can back thier own home,
then, what about the 1 girl who is permanent tenant?!!!
She did nothing. and she still always complaint .
She never clean up the house, and yet she complaining....!!!
she's slut. Ok!

(i know it's not good to say people's bad , becuse i am not good also, but...
i must say something before i burts my anger . Then it might be too late... )


If let's say, i am cruel, then now i must be stya with my friend, she's offer me live in her house in s17, then sure , i will not handing this damn house problems every sem.

i am kind, so the next is ---i 'll kind to be cruel.


Why must me, Why must be ME alone to face all the small small problems in the house,
we all student and stay together, But then,
i am the one who go to pay the water, electric bill...
who go call security when my housemate she have crash with outsider, and the outsider come to revenge...
Me, me alone to deal the extra Extra problems she bought in.

I am -- I a the person who clean the house, who wash the dish everytimes,
who clean the 2 toilets. (eventhough i am not using the other one...)
i ma the one who fix the fans (call ppl come..), ----the paip, sinki, the lamp, (i fixed it by my own hand, myself.)

and now---
the air con. (by handing it to my best male friend.)


Ok, ok,
i wonder , what's next!!!????

O~, yups, i forget,
i am the one who pay the more rental in the house , because they dont want to respond together for the vacanies.(Rm 275 ) per month.
plus my own rental, it's around 4 hundred.
Ok ok.
I am kind , i am nice person, but Please, i have my limits.

Sometimes i feel like i'll burts my anger, then i find someway to hide, and i
and because i'm really hope to be peace, so i dont want to count too much with my housemates.
But now....

seem like i have to tell them, i am enough.


Or one day , they'll no longer see me in the house, @ they have to find another place to live .
(without me, they can't rent the Club condo house in such low price, and may never get someone willing to rent the house to student.... )


Let's see.

To be cruel?

Yesterday my Sister scolding me for almost 1 hour.
She scolding me too "naif", and stupid, because me myself acting too kind and soft to my enemy .

I guess ya, i am too kind to my enemy, cause who debt me $$, i didnt really cruel to chase back my $$$.
Case 1--- one girl owed me $$, because she say she's sick so currently cant give back the $$ to me, then i give her timing about 1 week to hear from her, wish she's healthy now, and free to meet me.
If she dont wnat to or if she can afford , at least---i hope she can meet me to talk.

Then---now, i wait for 2 -3 weeks, she's no respond to me. She's not sick also. (i am the person in the end fall sick, because of my fnancial problem....then i have to work 2 part-times job...)
I have $$ problems, but i still lend my $$$ to her, i hope she understand my situation also... but
lastly, she dissapointed me.
She ask her Boy Friend to deal with me, and in the reverse way, her Boy friend insulted i am the one who Bully her girl frined!!!
(Wait a minuts, we are talk about $$, but why turn the topic to---bully? unhappy? )
So.... .... ....
This is what Penisular Johor muar girl did to me....



My sis ask me to be cruel, maybe i can take her property until she give back me the $$ she owed me.

But i didnt move...

GOD help me..
Tell me what to do.


Am i should just let go, because i debt YOU. MY GOD more than waht she debt me.
(this is what i think i sholud do... let go...)


GOD please Forgive me.

Thankx.

Give thanks.

Everyday, i woke up, and i keep asking why my life so damn bad, not like others?
why?
why me?
why i am poor, i am not pretty, i am short? why i have to hander this heavy pressure?

then , my life satrt to be so dim....
i'm in blue mood. I want to suicide. i can't hander anymore!!!
this is what i shout .-----------------------------until....lastnite,

When i went to my Freind house, He is so much harder than me....!
(poor, bad relationship with family, not educated...)

Waoh, it remind me , How Lucky I am .
i found out that , i am not that pity!
I have a quite Big House, I have a lovely Family, I have a Sister who always scolding me, but she Love Me!!!
I am University Student, I have a clean Background,
I am CHRISTIAN!!!

everyone have they own burden have to bear, so do i , so do them.

I am so Lucky. because i borned in Malaysia, a peaceful country, and i am Lucky, i am Chinese,
so i am not that Poor. (only 6% from the poor in Malaysia're Chinese.)

The Most Lucky thing is ================ I AM CHRISTIAN.
so when i am so hard, i feel like want to die, when i am no longer have strength to fight anymore,
JESUS rear me.
JESUS will hold me up.
Caring Me like a BABY.


I look back the year 2007,
i am so much poor and Pressure than now, and that times , the house problems, the money, Job, and family problems are so much burden than now.

Now , i teach Tution to get my Pocket money, i meet many new friends, i have a Lovely house(eventhough i have to pay more $.), My result is going up also.
I have new part-time job, to get my extra extra money to shoppin and having fun.

I am now Lifestyles of the kind---work hard, study hard, party hard.

I should be give thanks to GOD.


So, now ,
TODAY , i would like to present my Thanks To My LORD JESUS.
To Give Thanks to My GOD.

" Thank You JESUS, I always Love you. "