I am tired ...

Jesus,
I am tired. tired of working so hard, study so hard.

Tired of the discrimination in class.
My Lecturer Miss Zira really so discrimination . racist.
she say: sabah /sarawak iban dont know english bla bla...... ...."
then i raise up my hand say, no, sarawak ppl know english.
then she say : ape u pergi jau jauh ni, saya cakap kalao sarawak tak faham english. "

I know, she 's so hate sarawak ppl for so long times, when Angela say she wanna go out because her bf car broke , she need to fetch him, thn Zira say: kalao macam tu Kim ikut kao pergi lah"
then ofcoz i went off the class.

I really hate this politic in class.

I came here for study , not to make my lecturer happy.

But , yes ,
i know i cant make her happy, i am not rich to rasuah her.
and i am not malay.

It's may be my doubt, but i really do get a good mid term exam marks very times, and when it in final,
it's just a 180 degree turn.
over !!
it's so obviously they're playing theire kuasa.

In only a small things like this already play kuasa, test their power, then in a big things , big deal, a real politic??/ i cat imagine more.


Jesus, i am tired.

Save me.

Me , you, crying for Salvation.

Lord, my JESUS, my GOD.


Life is short, but we're not only have to have fun,i asked one of my friend---he's a Christian Before, because he dont believe others people can help to clear up his sin, so he converted to Buddish, which can do more good things to cover the bad .
then one day i asked him ,
whta is your meaning to live ?
he can't answer me.


And another friend- she's born in Muslims family,
then one day- she told me that Nabi Isa is Jesus.
I told her why i become Christian, it's because i found out only Bible is true religion book, there can found the evidence in history.
and then i asked her , when Islam started?
she say , 621 Ad.
that;s mean Jesus already 621 years old,
then i asked her, when is Nabi Isa, she say " after about 300 years of Muslim start..
Then i tell her, that's ,
In that times Jesus already 900+ years old, how can he is Nabi Isa???

so she's wordless.

I write blog here is not to critic, but just to menton,
everything have it's root,
everything happen and must leave a evidence .
you walk on the sand , it must leave a footprint.

so,
By the evidence , i know
MY LORD , My JESUS is true.
I LOVE to Be Christian, which i know this is not only a religion, but a way to save me.
A salvation.



p/s I am not to make the national racial, religion tension.
not to critic any others religion.

You can leave you comment here.
anything you think i get wrong just comment me, let us find it out.



Thanks.

Why we always disobey?

hello, i am kim.and i am happy.

I am happy, actaully in this few days i should be very stress , but i am not.

I am happy.

My roommate tell me that i smile when i am sleping. i dont know what i dreaming that times.
But i am happy for sure.

Me n my bf in on off relationship, i should be so sad about this, but, i am not.
i feel good.
He may have cheat on me, i saw his very close picture with a preety teen.
and he claims his not cheating on me.
I just let it be. I try to broke off, but it's hurt. Really hurt me, and i felt i gonna die for this pain.
Then he want me back to him, without a word, we're together again.
And i feel that i just want to be happy, i forgive what he done to me, and i release my pain.
NOw, i don't want to think much , as long as i feel it's alright, then we;re walk on.
of cause if i feel not that on, then i 'll definitely says goodbye to him .

My study--i just received warning letter from my Parnership Law Lecturer, i wonder why he gave me letter, in case i am not absent as many times as others people did.
But i am the only Pure chines in the class, i understand. I felt furious at the first, and now i feel better, come on, just a letter, it's not gonna to kill me.
I will attend his class later.
As i remebered, i absent his class not more that 5 times. it perhaps only two times in a row, so he so mean to warning me.
and i am really make him pay attention on me in the class.
I am outstanding , so he very easy to notice me not in his class.
So i should glad, and feel happy about it.


Well.. i am happy.

My midterm result is not clear yet, i dont even want to know about my marks, of cause i will help others to request for the marks, i know they want to know.


It's already almost everytimes i got good result in Mid semester, and in final result, i am so poor, so i dont want to know about my Mid.
I just want to try my best and wait for the final.

Emm.. i am planing to give extra assignment to all subjects, then i can like usual be more comfirm of not being dump.

^^


Thanks Jesus for given me a chance to be Christian, That's why i am Happy all the times.

^^

Amen.

august lo...busy no pray? NOPE!!!

it's august already...
me now started study hard . well... can't study that smart..!!

left one more yera i'll grad, so i must do something.
i managed to slim down also , so i keep go to sauna,emm.. every twice a week.
i hope it can do something for me.

I pray to God also. but now it's very seldom...
i'm shamed of this.
i always say I"M BUSY!!!
I have to work part-time, to give tuition,to study....to dating ...(multidating...)
to accompany my friends.

BUT I FORGOT TO ACCOMPANY MY GOD!!!!!

May GOD forgive me.
FORGIVE ME.

I know busy can not make any excuse for me to escape pray and read bible, so i wish to manage it , at least have to pray and read bible every once a week or twice a week. and maybe everyday.

I used to read bible everyday. at that time i still remember i'm strong.
now i am really weak.
I hope GOD can help me to wake up.


now it's seem like i'm little by little back to GOD 's path, so i hope can get better and more.

Dear GOD,
please forgive my sin.
because i'm long lose and lazy and always find excuse to run away from pary and read bible .
please forgive my sin.
may GOD be with me, send your Angel protect me, and send your holy spirit to awake me and guide me to YOU.

In JESUS name i prayed.
Amen.

LOve letter

Dear Jesus,

Please Forgive my Sin.
I always think i am so unlucky, i born in Malaysia, not U.k(i dream to be there).
I always complaint i am just too short , i am just 153 cm -155 cm, i am even not dare to measure my height after form 5.
I always think i am so unlucky girl, my family's poor.

But GOD, thank you for staying with me. Giving me many chances to be what you think it's best for me.
I am Law Student now, amd i will soon graduate. how lucky i am.


I still remember that days, i cannot pass and cannot get in the government university, i felt like my world be apart.
But GOD you guide me, you give me light to go on.
And guide me to KUTPM. (now upgrade to Management and science University)

I am so proud , i 'm finally can be standing tall and tell the world, i'm success, i am not unlucky poor girl.

Financially, YOU also give me Financially support.
I still remember--
I only have rm 200 in the stranger place.
2hours of flight from my home town .
i though i'll die here, but GOD you give me oppurtunities to survive here.

I am , I am Proud to Be YOURs.

I love you.

Now, i dont think i am so unlucky,
because i'm so LUCKY with GOD.

I LOVE YOU.

I am proud to tell the world !!

I am proud to tell the world I am Christian!!!

Dear,

I am now live happy and peaceful.
I starting to manage my life with those 10 rules in Lord.

And i do live heathier now. I 'll go sauna every once or twice a week, i do pray everytimes.
i do "thank God" in every moment. When i do exercise , i feel my body charging with power, and when i think of GOD , i'll feel my soul charging with Power.
Power from GOD.

So i like to do exercise and think of GOD.

I know i used to be so so bad , but i'm glad i'm back to nature.
Back to my GOD.