A Curtain fall for year 2007

In this 2007 , no matter what, bad or good, it's come to and end.

Jesus, thanks for accompany me this year.
next year , 2008 i still want to stick with you. My GOD.

In this very end of the year, last day..
emm... i think tonight i'll stay at home, because i back from college alraedy 9.30 pm...

So, i don't think that i still able to go KL for party.
It must be traffic jam at the middle ... so...
i think, i will stay at home and gathering with my housemates.

my new housemates. (they both are my friends, they live the others 4th floor unit, and now they move down to my house. )

Emm... thanks Jesus for solve half of my problems.
now i still need 1 more housemates. Because got one more girl she 'got the offer from government as a x-ray what therapy phamacy... (i don't know la. ),
and i have to find someone to fill her vacancy.

My financial Problems seem like will be solve soon, because i found a new part-time job, as a promoter in hypermarket.
well, so currently i have to run from college to hypermarket and also when i back home, i have to give tuition to kids.

Emm.. i don't know how long i can stand this, my body give me alert already...
(this morning my gummy bleeding..with no reason... maybe i brush my teeth too hard or what...but it's hard to stop the blood out... )
I know this is just small signal, but it may come with a big deal.


I started to take Cod oil now, i hope can more or less improve my immune system.



My exam is coming soon , it's on 4 .01.08 , and end at 8.01.08.

I 'm not yet prepare.. i'm a bit scared ...i don't want to fail or just pass.

GOD please give me strenght to do all this.


Amen.


Thank you my LORD, My GOD.

LoVE Ya ForeVer!!!!

Worry

Today's 10/12/07.
i am quite worry about my house problems.
It biggest worry is not $, but it's bacause i signed the contract, so, now in my house i just feel like i'm being bully.
They did nothing... i am the one suffer.
i just don't know what more i need to do.
First of all, i am really disapointed about my close housemate, she used to say anything happen in the house, she will support me, so that's why i signed the contract.
but now, little little thing happen in the house, all is under my liabilities. In cluding the wall , the floor, fans,air-con......


I am a small small human being too, although maybe i am more strong than other people, but it's doesn't mean i should bear it all.

My Best fren ask me to shift, but i rejected.
i think i should finish my duty here.
It's heavy duty and no pay.

My ex told me, " you can help people, but don't get bully. "

I think, now i'm be bully, so i bound.
as i settle this problems, sorry , no more tears for you to ask me help you.


JESUS, please give me strenght to go thru. Please Forgive me.

amen.

崩溃

今天一早醒来就看到我朋友的来信，她说今天的课是八点到十点。而且有考试，我看到是已经是九点了。。。
我就很紧张，我要打电话给她，哪知道，我的电话就没电了。
我就想，不要紧，我还有架电话，哪知，一直打都打不通!
我就想好吧，那么我就充电吧，哪知，充电器有问题，我根本充不到。


我尝试了很久还是不能，我整个人就崩溃了，我就大声的喊，大声的哭了。
我真的受不了。
连日来的压力，快疯了。




最后我的电话终于通了，我打给另一个朋友，她告诉我说，没有考试，只是一般的上课而已。

我听后就更模糊了到底是谁说的才是真的。。。。



我冲倒学校去，我告诉教授我不懂时间的变换，她说这是借口，

我一听就更不得了了，我火气上升，就满像当年我混着时的模样就满大声的说，这部是借口。
教授都怕了。。。
之后就不了了之了。


我想，干嘛今天我就那么烂阿。

但是后来想想，今天都还没过一半呢，所以就开开心心的过吧。

之后就这么巧的认识到新朋友，乔安娜。
也就开开心心的上网。
今晚也恢复正常的有补习班。又赚了一笔。


我想，这是主耶稣今天给我的考题。要我不去看白纸中德污点，那么世界就更辽阔了。
一开始的不顺，不代表是全部。

主耶稣必定赐福。


我也就是个小小的人嘛，烦恼总是不会完的啦，把他们都交给主耶稣吧。

一切交托在主耶稣的手中。

阿门。

What's that kind of Love?

My ex-housemate, she's broke off with her boyfriend.
How sad, isn"t it?
For that short period we live together i know she love him.
But..
how, when that kind of love is gone?...

Nowadays, teenager/ young@ old-- all talk about CINTA. LOVE.
so, what's that kind of love, when that's about benefit, hope for a return.
let's say i love you, so i helping you do housework everyday, i do cooking for you...
i do throw away my feeling guilty to make " sex" with you. then what i hope in return is , you love me.
you have to love me, because i love you.
Start the Love with a kind of mistery feeling, then continue with hope,
when it's out , totally out of what you're expect , then ... OK , no love.
That's turn to be HATE!!!

Ok, then what kind of love is this?


Love ... i used to in love for so many times, me myself also can't count it and give you a "numbers"..
emm, i guess...
emm.... ".....no answer".
i am a loser in love, why i say so?
because i can't love people with no others expect what he'll treat me back.
I used to think it's just like newton 3rd law.
a force to push will must have a force in the opposite direction to push back.
so i think, love , i love him, then waht i done for him, he at least have to give something same amount or value to me.
But when i feel disappointed, because he's not what i imagine... then ok, broke off.
I found TRUE LOVE, until i found out that yes, in the world, really got someone love me, and
even die for me without asking anything from me.

JESUS CHRIST.
LOVE YOU and ME.




Love , if put a value for it, it's no longer love. But in GOD, love is priceless.


JESUS love me, and his LOVE 's big, he never ask something back from me.
Think, HE give me all. But he never mad at me, if and (seem like ) i always blame GOD not give me the best.
GOD, Please Forgive my sin, i'm bow down to you.
GOD, i love you too.
From your Love , i learn to be like you,to think like you.
Start to love people witout asking something ,or hoping something in return.

In JESUS' name i prayed.

Amen.